As I sit here looking south out the hospital window, the last light of the day is fading away. A surgeon's skilled hands repaired what was broken today. I am in pain. I cannot eat, just drink. I'm losing my voice. But I am healing and I will be thankful anyway.
I miss my babies. I cried hard when I drove away last night. I cry now when I think too long about them.
They don't understand where Mommy has gone. I need hugs and kisses and to smell that baby smell. I will not see them for a couple more days but I will be thankful anyway.
I laid on the operating table this morning shivering and staring up at the bright surgical lights. I am always nervous when they put me to sleep. I hated that I needed this surgery. I wanted to avoid it. I laid there and talked to God as my consciousness faded away. I feel broken but I will be thankful anyway.
It so easy to be thankful for the good things in life. I am learning to be thankful for everything - the hard things, the painful things...the fullness of life.
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